I La-la-like My Beats Fast and My Bass Down Low

Jeans: Forever21; top: Worthington for JCPenney; belt: Marshall's; ring: Calico; nails: Sally Hansen "Lively Lilac."

I have an issue with looking directly into the camera lens. I'm trying to be artistic, damn it! Anyway, I decided to tease my unwashed hair today. You probably can't tell because I'm so frightened of change! I also tried to do a bit of a winged eyeliner with my cream liner, but again, you probably can't tell. I'm so scared to try anything new. I'm just trying to pass the time...

Passing the time doing pointless things is bloody awful.

I've spent time doing makeup, removing it, and doing it again.

I've spent time trying to rap as quickly as Nicki Minaj.

I've spent time drinking coffee and staring at my phone, hoping that if I look at it long enough, it will ring.

I am awaiting the phone call that is basically going to decide what I will be doing from now until May... Will I be in school? Will I not be in school? They're waiting til the last minute to tell me, as the semester starts tomorrow and if I'm going to be moving in, it will be tonight. Talk about stress! I was used to the idea of being back in school; learning again, living in a dorm with all my friends, having a set schedule. Then when I learned that I may not be going back because of a lack of open housing, I got used to the idea of staying here, at home, picking up a second job and applying again next fall. Now, I don't even know what I want the outcome of the phone call to be. Cross your fingers that I end up liking whichever outcome!

PS I need this ring in my life so badly!

EDIT: THE LADY JUST CALLED ME. I'M MOVING IN EITHER TONIGHT OR TOMORROW. I'M SHAKING AND CRYING AND SO EXCITED TO BE BACK AT SCHOOL SOON!

Pity Me

I think someone with a very contaigous cold might have coughed directly into my mouth. Last night started out with me being super excited - I recieved an email that my Urban Outfitters package had been sent out! I was with my boyfriend watching the Polar Express and BAM - instant sore throat. Seriously, that effer came out of nowhere! I kept on thinking that if I complained enough, a package of Halls honey-lemon cough drops would appear out of thin air. It didn't happen. After sulking for what I thought was just short of "too much," I left my boyfriends house and stopped at a convenient store to buy my new little saviors. I fell asleep holding onto them dearly, and I woke up with a not only a worse sore throat, but my eyes may as well be crusted over and my entire body is just sore. What good are you, Halls?! I would have posted this in video form but due to my sore throat, talking feels like hell. And I will not be posting pictures today because along with feeling like hell, I look like hell.


Anyway, sorry for me complaining but I even had to call out of work, which means no money, which means I've got to wait even longer to buy myself a macbook. Which leads me to a question...

...Which Apple product should I get? Macbook or the Macbook Pro?

By the way... I really really wish I had all of these DVDs so I could sit on the couch all day and watch them.

*Apple product photos courtesy of Apple
*DVD photo courtesy of weheartit

"you're afraid of color"

so here is a bit of a rant mixed with a few reviews! the title of this post pertains to the reviews part.

first off - MY COMPUTER. I am so over its bullshit! it refuses to keep my programs running so it decides to freeze them, therefor I am forced to force shut it down. so it'll boot back up, and do the same. exact. thing. PUH-LEASE. I am going to flip my shit if I have to deal with this for much longer!

secondly - my poor poor nails. you remember my latest NOTD post, yes? well, come to find out, taking green nail varnish OFF of your nails is quite impossible. now I've shamefully decided I won't use this polish again unless I'm really in the mood for a bright green, because after trying to not only rub off the varnish with alcohol but SCRAPE it off with a metal cuticle pusher, I am left with these sad looking nails, to which you can't even see the extent of the damage and dyed color!:

okay, well I guess I should just get down to business, which continues to be a bit of a downer. as you read in my last tiny haul, I purchased some e.l.f. products to give it a go. well, I gave it a try...

e.l.f. palette with chosen colors

alright, girls. here is my take on it:

first off, you should know I am NO mastermind when it comes to applying eyeshadows. that's why I'm starting to play around with them and practice.

- this eyeshadow was very hard to apply. as soon as your brush hit the powder, it like instantly crumbles (as seen in photo). I don't completely mind that, but I do like something with a more solid foundation.

- the colors are actually really pretty, and though I had a limited selection when browsing the brand, I do really like the colors I chose. they compliment my eye color fairly well, at least I think! like I said, I'm no mastermind here.

- the colors applied pretty evenly, though very lightly. then again, as my title post is named very correctly, I am scared of color. my art teacher told me that. I'd always be painting and be afraid of making a shadow to dark and such. therefore, I think I'm a little (okay, WAY) timid when it comes to playing up colors on my face, nevermind paper.

- final say: I rank it a 5/10. I didn't hate it, but I didn't love it.

e.l.f. liquid eyeshadow in misty mauve

my take on this one:

- I so much more prefer liquid/cream eyeshadow to powder! oh, thank heavens, something I can work with!

- the color is so pretty, and I definitely love the way it looks on my fair skin. it has enough shine to look nice but not so much that I look like a 6 year old playing with my mother's make up.

- it went on very evenly and cleanly. you can spread it out as much as you want, though because it is "liquid," it dries quickly and is a bit harder to blend. but that's okay - you can just add more where you need to.

- let me tell you: this stuff is ON there, man! it won't budge, which is great for me because I don't ever have much time to run to the rest room to check my makeup. I can imagine it won't all end up in my eyelid crease, either, because it has stayed put thus far.

- final rating: 8/10... I definitely recommend you to try this if you're looking for something new.

PS if you ignored my horribly untamed and quite scary looking eyebrows, I love you!

happy monday!

oh, lord, don't even get me started on the horrendous mondays! i have a horrible case of it at the moment, so i've crawled back into bed and am sipping my wonderful iced coffee while enjoying the fantastic breeze through the microscopic window in my bedroom. talk about a run on sentence...

in other news... i'm quite positive i've broken my pinky toe. DON'T YOU HATE STUBBING YOUR TOE? that question is the type that's not even worth asking, because unless you're a really fucked up lover of pain, your answer will most certainly be a big fat YES. i was walking towards my room and i happened to pass a chair with metal legs a little too closely and BANG - i wanted to get sick all over the place because it hurt so bad.

sorry for boring you all with this awful post. i'm sure i'll have something better to say before the night's over.

slacking!

i just peeled my socks off and BOY does it feel good. i just got home and i immediately ran to my bed. my shoulders are sore, my feet are sore, my eyes are sore... working sucks! i know, i know, how hard is it to serve coffee? it's not that - it's the old as fuck people that come in everyday and give me a hard time, whether it's in a joking way or not. either way, i am tired as hell right now. and because of this horrible time waster i call my job, i haven't had much time to come on here and enjoy comments and posts by all of you wonderful people! that being said, i need to get my arse in gear and make up yesterday and today's 30 day challenge!


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day 25: what can be found in your bag/purse? -
oy vey! alright, i'm emptying it as i speak! [read: type]
outside zipper part: $15.65 in tips, a bobby pin, a bright pink reminder that i'm working tomorrow..
inside [ARE YOU READY FOR THIS?!]: water bottle, wallet, VS mini lotion and body mist in pure seduction, 5 brand gum, burt's bees chapstick, c.o. bigelo lemon lip balm, 2 pens, a thing of bobby pins, hand sanitizer, gum wrapper, glasses case, daily medicine, sunglasses, floss, mini mouth wash, bracelet, mirror.
inside zipper compartment: tampons, bandages, and fingernail clippers.

PHEW

day 26: what you think about your friends -

i have nothing but kind words to say about my friends. of course they get on my nerves at times, but if i didn't like someone, i wouldn't consider them to be a friend. i love them to death. they would [hopefully] do anything for me, and i them. we don't share many of the same interests, but my friends and my personality just click. i have 4 very best friends, two from town, one about 2 hours west of me, and one all the way in california. there are really no words describing the love i feel for these people. they've been with me through the ups and the downs. they've helped me to become who i am today, right now. they are part of me, and forever will be.

oh, earl!

well, i am greatly appreciative of the fact that my mother had me cleaning off the patio of all things that could fly up into hurricane-force winds. it didn't take that long and wasn't hard at all. [can you sense my sarcasm?]

as us new englanders cowered in fear and braced ourselves the best we could for the hurricane's arrival, one question still remained throughout the days - where's earl? the ocean was calm. there was no wind.

OH FOR THE LOVE OF GOD - what is falling from the sky?! RAIN?! what on earth is that? everyone, quick, get inside and light the candles in case the power goes out!

oh wait... hi, it's just precipitation.

the trees are still. the air is still. WHERE IS EARL?

.... we were still asking ourselves that last night, when it began to rain again. we were supposed to see the effects of this storm throughout the day and into tomorrow. the news told us so! gale force winds! horrible flooding! everyone, go buy an immense amount of water and batteries! god only knows the next time you will be able to leave the house!

sigh. it rained. and then it stopped. and then it rained some more. let's cut to the chase already - HURRICANE EARL NEVER HAPPENED IN MASSACHUSETTS. everyone's panties were in a knot for the past week - hell, some actually boarded their windows and doors. i laughed at them as i drove past them this morning.

well, it is very safe to say that i no longer trust any news anchor or weather man. basically all media is a piece of shit. why did i forget this? [oh right, because i slept through all of my media classes last year]

day fourteen fail

skipping day 14: a picture of you and your family.

i'm too busy suffering from severe wander lust. i've been stuck in this same small town for way too long. i need to get out. go to chicago, new york, la, london... somewhere that's bustling with interesting people waiting for me to meet. somewhere that has things to do, damn it! i'm sick of the same people, same buildings, same shopping, same scenery. get me out of here!

ins & outs: fall 2010

ins

military jackets

 pair it with pinks for a more girly spin on it, and to not look too "hard."

layered jewelry

 from your necklaces to bangles, mix colors, patterns, and textures.

big rings

 bigger is better, right?

bright colors

who says fall has to be neutral-colored everything? make everything bright - from your nails down to your tights!

peep-toe shoes

as long as it's not raining.. who cares?

healthy eating

 why not try something new? [unless you already eat healthy, then props!] it helps your skin clear up, and it just makes you feel good.

dubstep

this genre of music is pure SEX.

outs

trash talking to/about co-workers

so not worth it if someone has a slip of the mouth. backstabbers are everywhere!

flats

no matter how tall you are, heels flatter everyone. they make your legs look miles long and they help make you stand straighter.
 

cropped shirts

unless you have perfect abs and a flat tummy, why would you want to expose yours? please keep it under wraps. besides, you get chilly when a draft hits your belly, especially now that fall weather is creeping up on us.

crappy fast food and heavily processed foods

you just feel like poo after you eat them, then you HAVE to poo because that shit is just no good.

day 11 = bust!

day 11: another picture of you and your friends - sorry, darlings! that's a no go due to the whole privacy thing. sorry i fail at this challenge, i should have actually looked over it before posting it hehe.

anyways, rant time!

you know what i absolutely LOATHE? rude people! this one lady came into our store today and tried to tell me how to do my job. our prices aren't expensive, but you certainly pay for what you've ordered. the bitch tried telling me i did my math wrong and charged her too much. she even went as far as writing down and the prices and doing the math - hello?! ever heard of tax? and ever think that maybe you might be a little WRONG because you're looking at the wrong size of a drink you ordered? she most certainly was not from around here because if she was, i would have called her out by her name and told her to leave. she was some filthy tourist still left over from the summer trash we get every year. ugh! it certainly didn't make my mood any better.

 

this crappy weather certainly isn't helping my mood either! rainy, dark, and windy. i honestly just want to lay in bed being lazy and refuse to get off of my laptop for the rest of the night, which is most likely what i'll end up doing :}

but enough about me... anybody else have a case of the mondays?

NY daily news can kiss my white ass

michelle obama seems like a cool chick - from her awesomely styled first lady hair to her j crew sandals. the woman's got a sense of fashion. but i seriously disagree that she is a "modern-day marie antoinette" and calling her glitzy and selfish for going on a fucking VACATION to SPAIN is completely ridiculous.

as for the "glizty" comment - it's the 21st century. the woman has style and doesn't dress like this:

and as for her going on a vacation - christ almighty! she lives in the white house surrounded by what i can assume would be chaos and stress to the extreme. so she wants to get out of the country and relax to get away... so fucking what? she most certainly has the money, she's the president's wife for christ's sake. the news doesn't target celebrities for going on expensive vacations when "people need to put their money to good use" like for fucking poor people. bitch, please.

people are stupid

no wonder this entire country is going to shit. this is on the east coast and DAMN IT, it makes us look like a bunch of whiny assholes!

"HARTFORD, Conn. — Federal consumer safety officials are investigating a complaint that a 4-year-old Connecticut boy nearly strangled himself with a toy from a McDonald's Happy Meal."

LMAO are you joking you fat fuck? first of all, it's your own kids fault if he decides to wear a bracelet as a necklace around his thick, chubby neck. teach your kid not to be such a moron before complaining to mcdonald's. in no way shape or form am i standing up for a fast food place, but this is so ridiculous. if my kid decided to wear something obviously too small around their neck, i'd call him a fucking retard and the kid would quickly learn not to do that after learning it doesn't allow them to breath. but obviously that's too hard for this connecticut parental unit to do. why don't you just let your kid to play in traffic then sue the makers of ford because they hit your kid. THAT MAKES SENSE.

hmph!

i had to delete my old name [which was rubbish anyways] because some people just suck incredible amounts of dick. so here you go!

http://cup-of-chaos.blogspot.com

stay tuned!

my life lately

i don't wanna clean
i don't wanna sleep
i don't wanna eat
i don't wanna make my bed
i don't wanna drive
i won't wanna work
i don't wanna shower
i don't wanna shop
i don't wanna blog

how irritating.

blah

sorry i've not been in the mood to blog lately. i am a little busy trying not to PASS OUT from this awful heat we've been suffering from lately. it's bloody awful, i'll tell you that. fucking 97 degrees ["feels like 102"] and SO muggy, it's disgusting. i don't want to be outside in the sun at the beach so instead i've been running through the sprinkler in my backyard haha. i don't plan on moving out of my air conditioned room until i absolutely have to.

sorry my darlings,

due to lack of sunscreen, i have been plagued with a horrible sunburn. i never want to move, ever. i'll get back to regular posting as soon as my ass no longer sets on fire upon sitting on things such as chairs.

she's just being miley

don't get me wrong, i know all of the words to party in the usa and can't be tamed... i adore little miley cyrus. but let's face it, the girl is trying to grow up too fast. i understand that younger teens want to dress more maturely, but it's not always appropriate for that age group. we get it that you're comfortable, but we're not, as we watch you grind and do body rolls on stage during concerts. i wouldn't want to watch anybody that's younger than 18 doing that. tattoos, not wearing pants, half of her bra showing in public... you're not gaga and you're still underage. feel free to let loose the night you turn 18, but until then, keep it pg for your fans.

who else can't wait to start seeing all of the miley nip slips and crotch shots the day after her birthday? *cricket cricket*

speidi = DUNZO

while browsing yahoo news, i see that heidi faketits montag is filing for legal separation from that disgusting piece of shit husband of hers... not that she is any better.

WHO WOULD HAVE GUESSED? [let me give you a hint - it rhymes with shmeveryone]

failure

so i guess my life officially sucks... i was wandering about the internet and i randomly decided to check my school email, and i wish i hadn't. innocence is bliss, right?


"I am sorry to inform you that you have been suspended from the College for the period of one semester and have been dropped from any Fall 2010 classes for which you may have preregistered... I encourage you to use the period of suspension to consider ways to improve your academic performance and reassess your career goals."


mom's making me get a full time job. not only do i hate working but i HATE being home. i love being at school [minus the academic standpoint, clearly] and now i have to miss an entire semester.

three words - FUCK MY LIFE

rain rain, go away

i'm sick of this rain. as the drops fall, they drags me down along with it. bullshit, i'll tell ya. i'm staying inside for the remainder of the day [minus class, of course] and curling up under my blankets and watching movies. fuck the rain.


at least i get to wear my lovely coach rainboots? sigh.

so tired.